Originally Posted 8/9/2011 5.05PM
你像个孩子一样的被我看穿
在你面前我试着隐瞒
所有过去全都变成伤害
Lately, I’ve been listening to Mandarin songs and reading Robert’s Mandarin class notes to brush up on my Mandarin. Thea suggested I watch this Mandarin singing competition on youtube (she watches it on cable at home apparently), and I actually quite enjoy watching it (even if I don’t know what they’re singing about half the time because the lyrics on the screen are in Traditional Han…). In my opinion, Standard Chinese is a really beautiful language. The poetic nature of the language captures something that I doubt English can ever capture. And the songs are all very poetic without sounding complicated. English songs are just basically the same thing over and over again, except with varying vocabulary and sentence structure. Even so, the vocabulary is rather simple. So I suppose listening to Mandarin songs is like a breath of fresh air for me.
Anyway. Did unexpectedly well for AS. As in everything. And a 197/200 for English Literature and full marks for Psychology and French! Classics was a little under 190, but still an A :) Parents are pleased. Grandma made me a big bowl of Eton Mess to celebrate, hehe. My friends all did well too ^^ Can’t believe I’m in Upper Six now. Time flies, and pretty soon I’ll be in University… I hope.
Applied for Critical Thinking. My French teacher’s quite sad that I decided to drop French for CT, but I don’t really see the need for an A Level in French. I think AS should be alright. Mum was trying to convince me to drop Classics instead (since I scored the lowest in that for AS), but I refused to change my mind. I don’t think I’ll do very badly in Classics As, but majority of my seniors only got a B for the subject. But I really enjoy Classics. Was in a dilemma for quite awhile till Annalee convinced me to follow what I wanted to do rather than what I thought would be better for me to do, so in the end, I went with Classics instead. Hope I didn’t make the wrong choice.
Took a U6 Photo today with the class. I suppose it really made me feel like an U6. Tomorrow’s the L6 induction. Although, it seems like just yesterday when I was getting ready for my induction to the College…
Oh, and I think this long distance thing is really taking a toll on both of us. I mean, it’s quite difficult to just sit behind my computer and watch her cry and I can’t do anything about it because I’m stuck on the other side of the world with a seven hour time difference between us. She was really really upset over her Theatre mark and what did I do? Nothing. I don’t even think she heard half the things I was saying to comfort her. This is why it didn’t work out the first time. I don’t even know what our relationship is anymore. On Facebook, it’s “complicated”, but what exactly is “complicated”? She won’t give me an answer, and I’m too worried to ask about it. We tell each other about the people that catch our eye in school (in fact I told her about my crush on Milkshake, and she told me about her crush on this Wednesday dude), so I don’t really know what our relationship status is right now. Frustrating - this is what led to our first ‘break-up’, and I don’t know what to do to prevent a second one from happening (or maybe it has already happened and I’m too naive to know it).
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Depressing stuff aside, I’m going to go diving (finally!!!!!!!!!) with Sophie and Robert before dinner :) So I think I’d better get a move on before the pool closes~
到了最后我选择离开
